4 Month Mark

So...we have reached our four month mark since LID. It's so hard to think about how many months we have ahead of us. I read messages saying that we could have up to a three year wait and I feel sick to my stomach. I know it is something we have no control over, but I can't stop myself from thinking that if we had only started the China process earlier when we were involved with pursuing Russian adoption, we would already have our Jade home. I know everything happens in God's time and there is a reason why we started exactly when we did. It's just so hard to remember that sometimes! We both turn 40 this year and it's looking like we will probably be 42 by the time we bring her home. I never could have predicted I would be a first-time parent at 42! All in good time...